This is what I want.

Today is December's first day. I am really excited and giddy when I feel the fresh (pa nga ba?) Christmas breeze in the morning. It's like my sign that the holidays is just around the corner. And so is my birthday.

So last year, I don't really remember how I celebrated. Hmm, two years ago I remember my friends giving me a surprise birthday greeting in our World Literature class. The other years ago, ummm.. I don't remember.

My birthday wishes? I don't remember. I also don't remember if they happened or not. This year's birthday wish? Umm, let me think about it first.

So I have a little plan. I'm cooking on the night before my birthday and invite some friends over. As of the moment we still don't have a maid at home so expect the party to be a little messy. But yea, I just want to celebrate with the closest friends, have a pretty good meal, drink some beer perhaps, and de-virginize our new 2010 edition magic sing.

About the birthday wish... Okay I have some wishes now. I want an Incubus Moments and Melodies album. Gian, Marvin, and Riguer are buying it for me. I want a Nikon DSLR, which I will probably have by next year because it's hella expensive. And lastly, I want to install a really nice set of speakers on my car so I can enjoy my music trippings a little more. And what else... wala na siguro.

But since I know I can't have them all... I mean, come on, they are expensive and my parents won't shed money for those because I am already working... so I have some wishes that I guess I can have for my birthday.

Okay, I just want an "authentic" peace of mind. I know I fucked up this year, especially with relationships and to everything related to those. I am still bitter, perhaps, but I just want to end it all. So regardless if it's me or the other parties that should to do the first step, this year, for my birthday, I want to reconcile with the people I have issues with so we can all start over.

I want something as simple as that. And I just realized that I did the first move.

Now this is the birthday wish that I probably won't forget. I wonder if it would happen, though.

Happy birthday to me.