It's still leaping.

Whew.

I always tell myself to always walk forward. Looking back every now and then is normal, but getting stuck from the past won't take me any further. I want to be situated somewhere better. Mistakes, mishaps, and heart breaks of the past still urge me to look to what is in front of me... and to what and where I should be.

Just this afternoon, a very important part of my past suddenly reappeared. Forgive me for saying this, but my heart has been leaping from the very second I got the instant message, up to this moment that I am uttering random words for not being able to contain what I feel. For a second, I thought I was suddenly brought to where I always wanted to be. To be with the arms of this certain someone I know I curse but I dearly love.

I am sure I will be thinking about this for quite some time. Yet, I know that I am strong-willed and that I am still aware that what I have right now is the best for everything. It is best that I am not with him, for I am not what he needs.

"Keep walking.", said Johnnie Walker. I know I should. More importantly, I am hopeful to be stronger than now, so that my goddamn heart will stop leaping when I encounter him... again.