Distance

Oh, this is what I hate about being an adult; crossroads.

I actually don’t know how and where to start but thoughts in my head and emotions in my heart are overflowing. I am supposed to do some stuff for work today but I guess I should start letting these emotions out before I go mad.

Okay let me get this straight. I might work abroad. Ugh, scratch that, I will work abroad. I have my future planned out. By the age of 26 I should already have my MA degree, work with a managerial position by 27, save-up money ‘til I turn 28 and finally prepare myself for a married life. Of course, job opportunities here in our country won’t help me achieve these goals, which is one of the reasons why I am considering working abroad as one of my best options.

Of course at first, everything seems so easy. But times have changed, things have changed. At a certain point, I know I am torn between pursuing a goal and staying in my comfort zone. Two things; one, it’s going to be a really complicated setup at work, and two; I know I wouldn’t want to leave Ruoan behind.

Ugh. Decision-making is such a bitch.