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Yea, it's been a while.

I realized a few things just now as I waste time at work. I figured some of the "trends" of our generation, the 90s kids, when it comes to relationships. To be specific, yes, the romantic relationships.

For one, it is in our generation where the "it's complicated" label started. You know, the no-commitment-but-I'm-havin'-fun-hanging-out-with-you thing? The kind of label that keeps you both in gray area. The kind of label that usually hurts you, but doesn't give you the right to get angry or complain. The kind of label that doesn't really allow you to give it all out.

Have you encountered people who are like pseudo-best friends? The ones who claim that they are each others best friend when in fact, they have secret desires for each other. I think it's a sort of a way to keep yourself close to the other person. But I think it somewhat distorts the point of having a best friend. I stumbled upon Ramon Bautista's tumblr and this is what I found.

darknessinzero asked: Gud day po sir ramon, nais ko lang naman tulungan ang isang kaibigan kong na alyas ay "R.E.M".

Ang problema nia po kasi ay may isa po siyang kaibigan na babae, parang bes frend na po nya, tapos lumipas ang panahon, di na siya pinapansin, ano po ba ang dapat nyang gawin upang maibalik ang dating pagkakaibigan.

Salamat po, sana po magreply kau. :D

yang mga relasyong “kunya-kunyariang best friends pero may gusto pala” ay isa sa mga nakakatawang gawain ng mga kabataang below 24.

nakakatuwa yan sa mga sine pero isang tragedy yan in real life kasi one-way yan madalas. malamang si babae ay nakahalata na at nailang. kinilabutan sya at lumayo. o may nakitang bago.

balang araw magkikita nalang sila sa supermarket at may anak na yung babaeng yun habang sya ay bumibili ng sipilyo. baka maging friends sila ulit pero di na tulad ng dati.

let go.


Clap, clap, Ramon Bautista. Very well said.

Lastly, where did the term "MU" go? Or am I just stuck in the 90s era? HAHA. Apparently, the "in" term now for two individuals who have mutual feelings for each other is "may thing sila". The same goes with the line, "I heart you", which simply means, "I love you." Ayos.

Just sayin'. Observations. LOL.

Distance

Oh, this is what I hate about being an adult; crossroads.

I actually don’t know how and where to start but thoughts in my head and emotions in my heart are overflowing. I am supposed to do some stuff for work today but I guess I should start letting these emotions out before I go mad.

Okay let me get this straight. I might work abroad. Ugh, scratch that, I will work abroad. I have my future planned out. By the age of 26 I should already have my MA degree, work with a managerial position by 27, save-up money ‘til I turn 28 and finally prepare myself for a married life. Of course, job opportunities here in our country won’t help me achieve these goals, which is one of the reasons why I am considering working abroad as one of my best options.

Of course at first, everything seems so easy. But times have changed, things have changed. At a certain point, I know I am torn between pursuing a goal and staying in my comfort zone. Two things; one, it’s going to be a really complicated setup at work, and two; I know I wouldn’t want to leave Ruoan behind.

Ugh. Decision-making is such a bitch.

Long Wait.

Perhaps it is true, that love comes along when you least expect it. I have been in the Singles Club for the longest time and waking up one day realizing that I no longer belong in it feels quite untrue.

My current love story is the kind that most writers don’t write about. It is not your typical boy-meets-girl but it feels a lot more real. It is more genuine. It is the kind that brings back my self-respect and value, an ideology that teaches me how to be selfless, and a strange force that allows me to have it in control. Everything feels different now; it gives me a light and happy feeling.

I don’t think I can exactly tell how I got here, but I am sure that the reason for the smooth sail of our newly born relationship is when we keep things simple. Less drama is always healthy. I notice from my past experiences that I often intellectualize everything; thinking of the future circumstances right away without even knowing where I am at as of the moment. I read between the lines without reading the lines first. And so I realize, the key is to simplify.

Last night, we went to church to attend the mass for Ash Wednesday. It felt so surreal to have him right there beside me as he held my hand while we prayed. When he kissed me on the forehead as we exchanged “peace be with yous”, I knew that at this point in my life, I am where I am fated to be: to be with a gift that God and fate prepared for four long years, just to be with me.

Perhaps it is true, that when love hits you, you will forget that you ever waited... and that the wait will be so worth it. :)

The Itinerary.

Go figure... me.



Just a random thought.

I was with an old friend last night and we both agreed how we hated to be the ones to choose on which restaurant to eat at, as well as deciding on which food to order. While most fashion and dating magazines say that being able to choose and decide the resto and food that you like gives your date a hint about who you are, I still find it too much of a hassle. So, with my ever mareklamong self, I gave my old friend a little dating tip to help him out in his dates in the future.

It would really be nice if the guy who asked you out would prepare an itinerary for your date. I know how thrilling spontaneity is, but planning out on what activity to do, which resto to eat at, what movie to watch, where to watch, blah blah keep things a little organized. It saves time too. Don't you hate the "San mo gusto kumain?" part, which takes almost all of your time because the most common answer that you give anyway is "Ikaw ang bahala."? UGH.

Of course you don't follow the plan strictly. But having one is like bringing a gun to a battlefield.I don't know; it still depends on the person's preference. Pero ako that's what I prefer. I think it also shows the guy's diskarte and his taste. It shows how he would 'handle' you.

The old friend was supposed to take me at TechnoHub but its parking space was full. His plan B was to take me to Convergy's Commonwealth. Ayos.

I don't know if he had a plan in mind but at least I didn't have to be the one to decide. Salamat naman sa kanya, dahil ayoko talaga ng nag-iisip.


LOL. Sabi ko na nga random thought eh. HAHA.

new year's resolution number one...

...stop shopping like crazy for shoes, clothes, and anything material. Invest on travel!

Memories are priceless. They remain in my mind and heart as long as I live. And besides, seeing trees, and mountains, and beaches, and anything nature-related leave me in awe.

Here's the jumpstart. ;)






















SCTEX: wonderful. I love the scenery; what a worthy long drive.

We went to Camayan Beach at Subic. January 2.

Where's my next stop? I'm eyeing on Vigan. I hope my friends would approve of it. :p
Who's game? ;)

This is not that blog entry yet.

The hardest part of coping up with an unsuccessful attempt to romance is seeing and/or encountering things that are associated with your failed subject of interest. Just when you thought you are okay and forgetting, here comes this little BS to make your heart leap once again. What a bitch.

Earlier this day, my dad cooked sinigang for lunch. It was the first time that I didn't get excited and giddy about having that as my ulam. After lunch, I drove to the office and heard I Can't Fight This Feeling by Cory Monteith over RX. (Damn, itinago ko na nga muna yung CD ko ng Glee just so I wouldn't hear that song for the meantime.)My heart still leaped but a heartache eventually followed.

After I parked my car, I got my mini bag from the back seat and there was this tag on it that says, "Made in Bangkok". Before I went up to the main building, I saw manong mekaniko fixing something on the company car. And finally, as I was online on YM, I read the sentence from a message that always reminded me of a certain someone I thought I was already forgetting.

Maybe, I would never fail to remember how he loves sinigang. I would always remember that it was him I was thinking of every time Finn of Glee sings that shower song... that I would always imagine myself walking in the streets of Bangkok with him as he orients me with that hometown of him... that I would always admire his patience and hard work whenever he shares how hard it was to invest on the makeover of his car... And that he would always blame me for not inviting him to join me and my friends during an inuman. I thought I wasn't living on his shadows but apparently, I was wrong.

Sorry guys, this is just not that "I-am-so-over-you" blog entry yet.


Where are the damn distractions when you need them?

Gian: "Cooool."

Can I just say that this one made me really happy last night? <3






When Gian asked me some weeks ago about my birthday gift request, I never hesitated to tell him right there and there what I wanted. :)) I am collecting CDs of my favorite bands and having Incubus' collection of best hits would be such a great gift for me. And so last night, I considered Gian as a better dude than Santa Claus! :))





It was him and Marvin who I had dinner with last night at my house. We drank a little, took some lovely pictures of us and called it a day at around 4am. Damn last night was so fun even if it was just the three of us. I love them both. :)

We missed Riguer cos he's got work. I guess I'd see him soon at our planned out of town getaway.

I miss you guys already! I love you. :)